Wednesday, July 14, 2010

2 steps back...

The thing about recovery is that it isn't linear or always predictable, especially after getting infused and radiated with stuff they used at Hiroshima.   Interestingly enough, when Deanna sat in with one of the radiation therapists (behind the lead reinforced wall)  one morning during a treatment session, he noted to her that much of what is known and used by today's oncologists regarding dosage etc. was learned by studying survivors of Hiroshima a Nagasaki!  Thought provoking to say the least.

It's been 5 weeks since my last post and my current physical status has changed somewhat...not all to the good.  My energy continues to ebb and flow, mostly better in the early morning and then tanking close to lunch time.  After a nap I'm better for a couple hours and then I'm pretty much done for the day and have to just rest.  I've been experiencing some real weird, and pretty gnarly, back and neck pain that intensifies as the day progresses.  I've been back to Vicodin again some nights at bed time to be able to sleep.  Thank God for Deanna who always offers a back/neck massage nightly.  My incredible kids got me a massage chair for Father's Day!

Saturday's present the biggest challenge because I lead worship and need to be the "guy folks look to" for encouragement and, at times, spiritual comfort.  I'm so thankful that my voice is back(well mostly) and I get to sing songs to our Creator and for our congregation of worshipping folks.  It is almost overwhelming at times to be able to use that gift for His purposes.  God's spirit soars in us when voices sing in perfect three part harmony.  Here's a thought for my unbelieving friends - outside of pure spiritual value can music exist for?   I'm sad for those who just don't get this.

Onward and forward in His Time and for His Will